When time is the only issue ...

For those who really know me, i really dislike time wasting. The reason being is that time is the most valuable thing in one's life. You can use time to learn things, knowing new people, making yourself a better person. Instead of spending time complaining about life and how terrible your work is, why not use those time to find a better job and making your life an even better one.
I never knew how i end up thinking like that and i'm not sure when it all started, but i am quite sensitive to time wasting. I live myself learning not to regret as regretting will just waste more time.

However.....

..... thing changes a few days ago. I regretted for the first time in a long long time. It was a very terrible feeling. I tried looking elsewhere and keep my heart running but i couldn't. I couldn't lecture anyone anymore. People who came to me, complaining about the same thing over and over again, i just don't know what to say anymore....

....People who keep searching for freedom. Freedom from their parents, freedom from their current life.

.....People who complained about their job. Complained about their salary and that they are not paid their worth.

.....People who argued over nothing. Argued over words, over a single eye blink. Argued over dollar and cents.

.....People who couldn't work, couldn't smile because they are heartbroken .... again.

If these are the problems you are facing every morning when you wake up, go on..continue wasting your time. Cause if one day, when sickness hits you.. you will realize that all these doesn't matter anymore. You will be begging God to make you the poorest person on earth, to make the whole world hate you, to place you in the worst job ever, to make your heart break a hundred times more...just not to take your life away. Not taking away the life of the people you love.

On 28th January 2010, while i was hoping that Manchester United can beat the hell out of Manchester City and book a spot in the League Cup final, a very close family member left us. Cancer got the best of him after 2 over years of battle as he left his two daughters and his wife ( my sister ). It was really painful especially after knowing about the problem he faced for the past few years. How could i not know ?

Even with all the problems they faced, he told a close relative that the past 15 years was the best time of his life. He married the best woman in the world, and gave birth to 2 great kids. Nothing else matters. It was the first time i saw my sisters cried since cancer took dad's life way 17 years ago.

My friend, there is no such thing as a perfect life. Everyone makes mistakes. As long as it is solvable, then solve it right away and try your best so that it won't happen again. Because when it's time that you have to face a problem that you couldn't solve, there will be no amount of sorry and regrets that will make a difference.

for everyone's playing pleasure

Doubutsu Uranai

before the next meeting which i don't know when and i don't know why the timing all salah for us T_T
maybe it's just meT_T
gomennasai. (bows)

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Sylvia @ BodoBy's Result :

Bodolat de:D

i see trees of green, red roses too~

:D if you feel lazy/blur then might as well just follow ba

*urh-hm*

*image stolen from original website*
casey darling.

this is what you get when put a stick and a round together.
hahahahahaha :D

bodosey's dedication~

How sad will it be, when you wanna wish someone but u can't...
so I am here, and all i can do is to dedicate this song especially to two of my family member =D

This song has been posted in before, now would like to post it up again :D
Congrats again to the round and the stick :D

Suerte que despierto junto a ti
Suerte que sentí lo que sentí
Suerte que regresas para mí
Suerte que hay más por conocer
Suerte que contigo creceré
Suerte que te tengo al volver

*love is in the air* swooooshhhhhh~~~~~

Gratefulness in 2009

1. What am I thankful and grateful to God in year 2009?

First of all, I'm thankful and grateful to God for always being by my side no matter where and when. He protects me whenever I go to places and He knows everything that I'm doing. (Haha sounds scary) But...that's how much I feel about His presence in my life since not too long ago. I was a Christian since young but I've backslided for many years to a point I don't even feel like a Christian. Having to get close to Him again is a blessing. I feel blessed because:

• I began to realise that I have such great family & friends who cares and loves me for who I am. My Bodo family, my daddy, my cousins & niece, uncles & aunties, god sisters and friends from primary school until now.
• I have the courage to shift in my career line from Accounting to Music. I feel I'm so much happier than before as I really enjoy what I'm doing, though the money I earn now is inadequate for me at the moment to survive in the big city. :X
• I have the courage to move myself from Kuching to KL, despite many uncertainties and emotional breakdowns. I wasn't feeling so well with myself the past many years ago and I questioned myself the purpose of being in this world. I felt really lost at that time.
• Having Amos to lead me back to church. I've been to a few churches before in Kuching but I never feel comfortable. This is the first time I'm able to open up to a church and the people within it.
• Most of all, I'm grateful that God is always good to me & others and is like a Shepherd who would leave the group of lamb to look for 1 lamb who got lost. I've sinned a lot in my life and because of God's grace, I am able to repent, let go and look forward to be good by living according to His words in the Bible.
  

2. How do I rate myself in terms of attitude & character?

Arhh...this one is tough to answer. I would just say 7. The things I'm lacking in my attitude are:

• I have the high tendency to envy others (-1 point)
• I have the tendency to take things for granted at times (-1 point)
• I'm not focused enough at times in my career (-1 point)

3. What do I want to improve in 2010?

• To be more focused in building my career and in my music education
• To show more of my love and care to others with a sincere heart
• To stop envying and comparing with others
• To not taking things or anyone for granted
• To seek God more
  

4. How do we continue loving and caring for each other (Bodo family) in 2010?

• Meet up once a week to catch up with each other
• Plan for certain activities together. e.g. Movies, day trip
• Celebrate our birthdays together
• Update our blog :P
• Care about what's happening in each other's life
• Offer help whenever we can to each other
• To have our hearts and minds open to one another without skeptic

i present...

a quote for my bodos for 2010.

“Growing up is a dance, just like mambo or the cha-cha: one step forward, two steps back. The trick is to enjoy the lively process, in both directions.”

taken from “The Fire Down Below”.
Ghost of a smile – Deborah Boliver Boehm

p.s//excuse the picture that doesn't fit the quote :P i just feel like eating ice-cream now but i can't thnks to my never ending cough. blah